to god,

there are a million things that i can say to you. a million questions but then there is a major question before that. do i believe in you or do i not.. not in the existence bit, coz divinity is a matter of belief. but of the fact that how do i trust you.

i have reached out to you. time and again for various things, things that have been selfish, or totally self less. things that have just been obvious... what have you done? sat back and thrown miracles at me, which i kept missing. opportunities that i have thrown away, maybe that's it... i have thrown away those opportunities to have a better life.. i should have picked my career above all. i shouldnt have given my love a chance.. coz you never gave me a chance at having my love the way i wanted it. forget me.. what have you done to this world.. we have a choice.. of making our life the way we want it to be.. what of those who cant help it... little kids dying in some arbit country.. coz of some power hungry jerks.. why them??

me i can understand... i have made wrong choices. i have been selfish.. what about the others in life... what have they done to u?? they believed in u.. right?.. they prayed to you.. did everything ur people have ever put down in books. what is their sin??

even if my problems are not as big as theirs.. why does it hurt so much.. aisa kya kiya yaar maine??
you are god right? cant u forgive me? please please please just let me go from here... i cant handle it. mujhse nahi jhela ja raha. i cant bear it.. i really cant... please..just let me go.. im weak.. i really am.. and im feeling so lonely... i just cant breathe in this mess anymore.. please let me go..

please god.. please....